I'm at work but I can't clock in until 10 minutes before the first appt time...I came in 30 minutes early by mistake which really ticks me off b/c i was rushing around the house to get ready like a mad woman when I could have been sleeping. Patrick is in town but still isn't talking to me which is crazy considering he is the one that effed up, he'll never apologize and he'll never understand. Then you have Chris who is completely 100% in like with me - but I'm resistant b/c idk why he likes me as much as he does. He barely knows me and yet for some reason he thinks i hung the moon. Maybe that's been my problem in past relationships; I let them get to know me lol- then they see the crazy and turn into assholes. My birthday is in 8 days and i can't help but wonder if he'll even give it a second thought- this would be the fist birthday in 3 that i didn't have him here. Not that he ever really did anything special for me on my birthday...at all...come to think of it I don't think he's ever done anything for me on my birthday other than a card and being guilted into dinner...Why am I even upset of this douche bag (what's funny is as i write this im thinking, "What if we get back together and he reads this; he'll be so pissed off". I have a Problem.