My head Might Explode

I thought It was over and I felt amazing. I was starting to do better and certain male pulled me right back in just to turn around and start the same stuff again. I love him and I can't handle that. I was finally feeling better. So now we're not talking until Thanksgiving; were I'm sure we'll talk everything out and he'll let me know what HE wants. I don't know what to do anymore, things use to be alot less complicated. My stress level is maxed out and I feel like I'm breaking.