you again

I had a dream that you were the man in my life again. It was like I had never met Eugene. In this dream my mother lost her home (much like she did in reality a few months ago), only this time because I was still with you I was still living with her, which means I lost my home too. We(my mom and I) looked into the apartments, you know the ones that Kerri lives in. We were approved for 2 separate 1 bedroom apartments and though they weren't very nice they were very cheap. I sat in this apartment(my first home completely by myself) and felt so alone knowing that I had the "love of my life" but we hadn't talked in 2 days and I would be living alone for possibly a year before ever seeing you. Upon waking up I realized that this was my subconscious congratulating me on my stellar decisions over the last 2 years. I loved you, there will always be a part of me that does love you, with a different kind of love. The man I'm with now is marvelous and I wouldn't trade him for anything, not even to find out what things could have been like if you had chosen me over yourself. Thank you for being selfish, life for me is fabulous. Love always, his.