(So, it's not October 3rd...The thought was there, the action was not)
I will open this blog by telling you of my current surroundings. I am sitting in my, otherwise vacant, living room. Fuzz, my very large cat, is sitting to my left and Captain, my very old dog, is sitting to my right. I should have no worries, I am safe and sound. Yet, I sit here and find myself uncertain of the future. I have so many worries that, as a Christian, I feel ashamed. I make every effort to be encouraging to others and yet I find little motivation to be encouraging to myself. I feel as though I missed a chapter in my book and it has since become impossible to turn the pages back.
It has been a year since I've done a full update so, I will do my best to divulge. I am still enrolled in college and I'm hoping to graduate next year. After that, who knows what will happen. Eugene and I will be celebrating our third wedding anniversary on the 21st, still no children. For my anniversary gift, he is purchasing annual passes to Disney (he's not very good at keeping a secret). For his gift, I bought a very nice study bible and had it personalized with his name. It's beautiful and it keeps with the tradition of giving something leather for the third wedding anniversary. I'm shocked that he did not keep with this tradition as, he is the one that has taught me everything I know about this junk.
My sister [Sarah] moved to Florida with my nieces [Marian and Kaytlin]. This has been a blessing in the wake of a sadness. Unfortunately, Sarah's marriage of 13 years was dissolved for several reasons that I will not list. I will say that the dissolution of any marriage is a tragedy in that, it was at one point unexpected and unwanted. Regardless of the circumstances, I am appreciative of the opportunity to be a part of Sarah's and the girls' lives.
In light of Sarah moving in with our mother, April is moving in with Eugene and I. Today, she began prepping her new bedroom for a fresh paint job. April will be bringing Cat (that's his actual name) with her, making our grand total of cats, in the Cusie (& Frazier) household, 4! Four cats and three dogs...
My mother is in good health, she is a blessing each and everyday. I understand that losing a parent is difficult and letting her go, when her time eventually comes, will be devastating. So, I thank God everyday that I can call her or see her whenever I want to.
Sunday, October 05, 2014
Wednesday, May 28, 2014
Leafs, Branches, and Roots
I was talking to my sister about an old friend and she really made me think. She directed me to a clip from the play Madea Goes To Jail. The quote she was referencing is as follows:
" I put everybody that come in my life in the category of a tree. Some people are like leaves on a tree. If the wind blows, they're over here, they're unstable. Blow the other way, they're over here. if seasons change, they wither and die, they're gone. But that's alright, that's some people. Most people in the world are like that. They're just there to take from the tree, they ain't there to do nothing but take and give shade every now and then. That's all they can do. But don't get mad at people like that, that's who they are. They ain't never gonna be nothing, that's what they put on this earth for, to be what they are: A LEAF. Some people are like a branch on that tree. You gotta be careful with them branches too because they'll fool you. They'll get there and make you think that they're a good friend and they're real strong. But the minute you step out there on them, they'll break and they'll leave you high and dry. But if you find two or three people in your life that's like the roots at the bottom of that tree, you are blessed because they're the kind of people who ain't going nowhere. They ain't worried about being seen, don't nobody have to know that they know you, they ain't got to know what they're doing for you. But if those roots weren't there, that tree couldn't live, you understand? A tree can have a hundred million branches but only a few roots down at the bottom to make sure it gets everything they need. I'm telling you, Sonny, when you get you some roots, you better hold on to them because the rest of them, you let them go. Let folks go!"
Basically it boils done to the fact that I loved this guy, we were really close. We were never more than friends but, I really cared about him. Looking back I have no idea what we had in common, he listened to crazy people music (Megadeath, Metallica, etc), he loved the Simpsons and American Dad, and at that time he was the [most unconventionally] coolest guy I had ever known. He listened to me, not because I'm a girl but, because he loved me too. I don't know what happened, I really don't and it breaks my heart. He gave the best dating advise and always seemed to be in my corner and now I don't even know where he lives. I heard he's engaged to be married but he deleted his Facebook so I can't even fully verify that information. I feel like screaming at him, he would expect that...or maybe not since I don't know him anymore. I guess he was a branch.
" I put everybody that come in my life in the category of a tree. Some people are like leaves on a tree. If the wind blows, they're over here, they're unstable. Blow the other way, they're over here. if seasons change, they wither and die, they're gone. But that's alright, that's some people. Most people in the world are like that. They're just there to take from the tree, they ain't there to do nothing but take and give shade every now and then. That's all they can do. But don't get mad at people like that, that's who they are. They ain't never gonna be nothing, that's what they put on this earth for, to be what they are: A LEAF. Some people are like a branch on that tree. You gotta be careful with them branches too because they'll fool you. They'll get there and make you think that they're a good friend and they're real strong. But the minute you step out there on them, they'll break and they'll leave you high and dry. But if you find two or three people in your life that's like the roots at the bottom of that tree, you are blessed because they're the kind of people who ain't going nowhere. They ain't worried about being seen, don't nobody have to know that they know you, they ain't got to know what they're doing for you. But if those roots weren't there, that tree couldn't live, you understand? A tree can have a hundred million branches but only a few roots down at the bottom to make sure it gets everything they need. I'm telling you, Sonny, when you get you some roots, you better hold on to them because the rest of them, you let them go. Let folks go!"
Basically it boils done to the fact that I loved this guy, we were really close. We were never more than friends but, I really cared about him. Looking back I have no idea what we had in common, he listened to crazy people music (Megadeath, Metallica, etc), he loved the Simpsons and American Dad, and at that time he was the [most unconventionally] coolest guy I had ever known. He listened to me, not because I'm a girl but, because he loved me too. I don't know what happened, I really don't and it breaks my heart. He gave the best dating advise and always seemed to be in my corner and now I don't even know where he lives. I heard he's engaged to be married but he deleted his Facebook so I can't even fully verify that information. I feel like screaming at him, he would expect that...or maybe not since I don't know him anymore. I guess he was a branch.