eval

I went on a date last night. Well it was kind of a date, we went to Dennys and it was late so he insisted on calling it a "predate evaluation" lol. I actually had a good time. Patrick was unfortunately in the back of my mind for most of it but those thoughts will pass. I hate how much I love him. This guy is funny and for the most part doesn't laugh at his own jokes which makes him funnier and i give my respect for that aspect of his sense of humor b/c God knows I laugh at all of my jokes :) .

Dear Marsi

I can't post comments on your blog. You're my 'Rehab' boo- I love you!

'Cause I'm just one of those ghosts traveling endlessly, don't need no roads...in fact they follow me

I relapsed and in a weird way I feel okay about it. At first I was disappointed in myself but i feel ok about it now. I was wondering if he ever even thought about me and now i know that even if it was just for a second...he thought about me. Victory is mine. Oh my gosh I've lost my damn mind. I'm certifiable. When will this ever end? Everytime I feel better I remember the man i wanted to marry. How did he give up I wonder...in the very least I wish he would teach me his ways. Don't I deserve that much? Teach me how to fall out of love with you. Tell me how to flush the last two years of my life and just start over b/c good lord, i miss you more everyday.

I've got to stop watching 'How I Met Your Mother' season 1- Lily and Marshall's break up is killing me